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Friday, July 28, 2006

2:44 AM

shagged like totally shagged.school then drama and yes i did walk to drama wonderful me as i was uber early so yea.well finally found someone with a greater convincing skill than me guess who?none other than my drama teacher so yes i have been convinced that the role of juliet is better HAH so yea say hi to your new juliet though technically that just sounds so wrong.damn i so have to strain my voice in order to sound DEMURE fuck as it kind of hurts as a matter a fact but damn it man like everyone says my voice is kinda husky.hurr retardation la.owells got myself a new paperback today if i were you by julia llewellyn not too bad quite a new read though yes i still think that most plots of chickflicks are in fact kind of typical but owells i like it so sue me.chemistry paper was the most rubbish shit of all first i didnt know what the question was referring to and next i answered one question wrongly!dammit.it would so be a miracle if i were able to do well for this paper lest pass it.but what the hell what's done is done.social was on civil service yes thank god i studied that last night so kind of roughly knew what civil service is all about so hope i do not screw it up that is all anyway how does one study for source base anyway still think that what we are learning is very much propaganda and HAH still come to say that this is a ********* society but owells my last year so i should might as well make use of it as it is a pretty easy to score subject.thank god it's a friday anyway which in other words means that it is LAURA'S SWEET SIXTEEN tomorrow!happy birthday to you happy birthday to you happy birthday dear laura happy birthday to you.what can i say i miss my god sister and i absolutely love and adore her.owells anyway jamm @ gas haus on tomorrow tickets going at ONLY $15 with fabolistic bottle deals and hip hop and r&b all night long babyy.awesomeness you just have to be there!alrights hurrr im just promoting it for my friend so yeah.HAHA.so go check it out it'll be quite fun.how retarded im conferencing with a whole bunch of people now.alrights this is getting rather confusing alrights and this post is getting very random alrights so long suckers!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, July 27, 2006

3:07 AM

head's spinning,brain's pounding,mind collapsing,nervous breakdown coming.this is exactly how i feel right now.i cannot imagine anyone who can possibly be in a worser state of mind then me.not only am i so totally stressed out with the upcoming prelims which i am so not prepared for i am also totally bummed by the fact that i have to change my shakespeare piece even though i do not want to and to what?juliet.can you imagine me as juliet?well i cant actually as honestly i do not think i am that serious and emotional enough.it's just way too dramtic for me though ya technically i know that it is called drama class and yes we have to be dramatic but ya this is seriously way too much for lest me to handle.gosh so next option witch of macbeth in which i have to portray the roles of three characters.yes try to beat that or that of the luny ophelia.somehow i have this really strong feeling that my drama exam is going to flop big time this year.why?i dont think i am prepared and i am starting to not like drama altogether all because from what is supposed to be known as fun it is really starting to become rather stressful for me and i dont think i can take it much longer owells.i cannot wait for the girl guide cookies to come.the much loved pretties which are just so simply delectable.off to see a doctor later think i am allergic to the medicine he gave me last time.sigh my this month's medical bill as i have noticed is sky high.well am not in the mood to blog much head hurts too badly.blast!

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, July 22, 2006

9:18 AM

omg i feel so fat after wearing the yukata today.mich pulled so hard!!till i felt so fat.yes suck in your tummy.yes it's important to have make a good waistline since there is no shape in a yukata so you have to literally tie is really tight to make one.HAHA.but it was not say too bad just that i still have this feeling that i'm not really sure on how to wear the yukata properly but owells as usual there's always next saturday.sigh drama is more stressful then my o levels when actually shouldnt it be like more of the other way around.but owells i'm just having like the motherLOAD of drama lessons yet i somehow still think that i am not improving much and like thanks so much mich for telling her that i think i do not need to improve anymore.ya like THANKS so much la.gosh that was embarrassing but owells use my cross and scare the vampire away ya since it's like so big.retardation la.sorry inside joke but ya.anyways my next goal in life is to lose more weight so that i will look not too bad in the yukata and so that i can fit nicely into my white dress.gosh imagine the horror if i go for my exams and realise that damn the dress is too small.gosh i think i would just kill myself that very day.but sigh i've got like full dressed rehearsals once every week so i guess that that would not be much of a problem then.owells i have finally found the joy in exercising.yes jogging cum brisk walking turns out to be very good but i noticed that i keep having this strange stomach crampings at the side of my abdomen lately.shite i hope it is not too bad.from what the doctor said i have been doing too much sit ups but cannot be man as i have cut down alot.geesh i wonder what's the reason.please do not tell me that my insane gastric pain is back as i sure hated it ALOT and i mean really alot.sucks having such.owells but i still need to lose at least 2kg before september.yes that will be THE day not only do i have to lose weight for my birthday i have to lose weight for my exam too gosh i am so feeling the stress coming through now.HAHA.well i am so proud of myself i drew out a study timetable for myself to ensure that i will be all set and prepared for my prelims.pats self on the back.yes i stayed up all night just to do that and damn but it really seems as though the days are zooming by super fast it seemed as though the first day of school was just only yesterday or then again i might be living like 7 and a half months back.alrights i gotta crash now am still comtemplating whether i should go to church or not.cordy keeps messaging me asking me to go.gosh i'm starting to feel so guilty that i'm making her "worry" or something but seriously i am starting to not like church but owells.we shall see about that again i guess.damn i still cannot believe that HE is with HER.but guess it's not too bad that both are players so guess now it's just on whether who would dump who first.i think it'll be her though as seriously i think she deserves better.HAHA.gas haus baby yes i know i'm doing my best in the asking around ya so just take chill pill many people told me that they have tickets and are going already so rest assured i am sure it would turn out just fine ya. (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

9:07 PM

alright first and foremost a really big apology to everyone that i have offended the past few days ya i'm really sorry as ya havent exactly in the best of all moods in the past few days so ya i know i have been snapping at you guys alot and ignoring all your calls and messages so yea i'm really sorry and for all those people whom i have screwed up these past few days i also want to apologise to you as yea things have been rather screwy lately so yea i'm really sorry indeed.anyways didnt go to school today why?reason:school is naturally boring with all the classes and all but school with book & music week is what i can only call hell imagine sitting in the hall non-stop for six long hours.it's nuts not only will your bum hurt you legs will get all numb and crazy and soon you will just freeze up there and not be able to move.been there tried that for the past few years and trust me it is not fun at all.in fact it really sucks gosh though i prefer the book and music week in the past where we would make the bookmarks for our friends and all.that's just what i call meaningful and fun.i really liked book and music week when mrs kee was our principal she really made it very warm and just pure fun indeed.how i really miss her.owells sasha is in tunisia now.i miss that girl.i wanna go meet her now.how lucky she's on school break now and just when school has started not too long ago for me.geesh i think the education system in singapore is really stressful as it's such where they'll just make you work and work.thus making you only book smart and totally dumb to the world around you.which to me is not one bit good as you would then be very guillible to the things around you other than stuff like e=mc[squared].wouldnt that be really sucky if imagine everyone in singapore was like that.we would then become a country in which all the other continents would gang up and try to overthrow us.gosh then we can say bye bye to democracy and hello communism now that would be so back to the "good" old days.it will be singapore's last national day in the national stadium this year.how sad my first national parade was there and now i'm going for my last there too.i miss that time with my primary school.i remember how innocent we were when we were in primary school.we knew nothing about the outside world and thought that the world just revolved around school,friends,westlife and a1 and neoprints.HAHA.how loserish but how innocent.we never knew that there was such a thing called clubbing and i bet we didnt know that zouk even existed.gosh gone are the innocent days and hello world.anyways i should be studying now and why am i not studying.o crap.anyways thanks althea (:

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

12:47 AM

yay for once our teachers were nice today.our much dreaded geog test is postponed to next week thank god as i so did not prepare for it.damn imagine if i were to flunk geog again.gosh i think i will just shoot myself.but hey im sorry if i just cannot memorize everything for geog guess that is just not my forte.im getting both mentally and physically exhausted from drama my life is school,drama,homework,study,sleep.doesnt that suck and the worst part is i have drama about 3-4 hours each lesson 3times a week.it goes memorize memorize memorize now project your voice improve on it and so on so forth which is starting to suck as i have really never felt such pressure from drama before and it is really starting to get on me.ahhh.owells english lesson was actually fun for once though yeah i still fell asleep in it but reason being the tape played was just how to i say boring?as i dont like to hear repeated stuff well sorry about that.anyways i noticed that i really do need to brush up on my chemistry could not answer the questions properly today much say even balance the equation which we have been learning it since last year.i think i'm going to have a mental breakdown sometime this year.why?!just someone tell me why is this year just so stressful.alrights i think really need to give up all my play time and just for once try to organise both my lifestyle and my life.yes i seriously think i need a change in my life.my dream is to be a super mugger.well that is if i can actually do so.i really want to drop my crazy clubbing ways and actually learn how to pick up that book and study.can someone teach me a way on how to make studying fun.i think that is like the only way in which then i can motivate myself to study.i guess for me all that really matters now is for me to get my o levels over and done with and get into THAT poly course.sigh i guess that when it comes to life you are always bound to face many ups and downs like that on how i'm struggling with the fact that i just simply cannot study and yes that is really starting to bother me.i've got only 56 more days to prelims and i still suck at chemistry,physics and math.what bothers me more is that i have tuition for all those subjects and yet i cant perform?im really starting to wonder is something really wrong with me as ya shouldnt one be able to perform better with the help of tuition?jeepers.i really do not want to retain i mean seriously who wants to.gosh i think i had better start pulling up my socks NOW!those of you with studying tips please tell me as im desperate for them.anyways hurrah aster and i are going to throw the biggest bash ever so yea people do watch out for it.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

2:31 AM

alrights then i guess being addicted to peanut butter brings about severe consequences like that on how now i think i am putting on a whole lot of weight all thanks to my peanut butter sandwiches,peanut buttered waffles,peanut butter ice cream and last but definitely not least peanut butter m&ms.yes i so know that they are sinful but i just cant help the fact that i love them so much that i cannot imagine life without peanut butter not that would be like the end of the world for me.i'm sorry but i guess i just cannot seem to be able to kick this really bad and sinful habit.o geesh.someone please tell me that this gaining weight issue is not really happening as i want my figure and all back.ah this is really starting to get on my nerves and i'm soon going to be driven crazy all because of this.ah sigh.how cute yunxuan imed me just now saying that she likes my name and that it is sexier having an english name than a so called cheena name while you are having sex.her reason.it's so much more intense when you say for example "o yes,harder jess mmm that's right" to saying a chinese name.i told her she's insane and that she has just insulted herself.haha i think that girl's nuts but i still absolutely adore that babe.ahh i so miss her and her buckets of laughter.now that was just so classic.team adidas then was the shit.it was the to die for team however we had a mentally retarded coach which well we can just say he basically just screwed the team straight down to the ground.not to mention his endless talks about his daughter whom her team mates hate and call her "stinky _______" well as they always say like father like son but in this case daughter.obviously i'm sure we all can tell where did her bad personalities come from.owells today was let's just say a rather dull day.why cause first we had three periods of math out of which we emath girls do absolutely nothing then we had some stupid health check which was really dumb and boy was the lady really irritating that she sucked the daylights out of me with her screechy voice and terrible temper.then it was the much awaited recess and up next three periods of total waste of time.in other words english as we hardly do anything which is of value.then we had some chemistry practical which i think is redundant like all chemistry practicals which are all almost the same.then we had chinese and may i ask why are we having chinese when our chinese o levels are already OVER?!?i think that is rather stupid as i'm sure we can all use that time to do some constructive studying on our own.i mean like we are babies who needs to be spoon-fed.owells maybe one or two in class that is but yea man.we need more time and all.someone please stop all these racket this instance.please i'll give you ten cents (: well anyway krunk at sentosa tanjong beach 1st september or in other words my birthday and i want to see everyone there.it's going to be a carnival cum flea market cum mega party alcohol for those 18 and above with id and entry for those 16 and above.so yea my sweet sixteen and i want to see everyone there.that means you and you and YOU!tickets going at $20 inclusive of entry to sentosa.so everyone come down and party with me this 1st september.i want to see you there.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

3:35 AM

someone broke into our school today.it was really funny as the intruder just came and took out our netballs and scattered them across the school field and flung plastic bags all around the place.it looked as though some hurricane went through my school.and the retarded part is that when we wanted to put up the plastic bags and throw them away the teachers were like "NO!!! YOU CANT DESTROY EVIDENCE!!"now that's the 1st time when a teacher asked you to actually leave the place in a mess.RETARDATION.it was so hilarious as the teachers were all like you girls must look out for areas of suspected break ins and if you do see any suspicious looking people lurking around you must inform the office as we have to keep the place safe for you girls and blah.come to think of it what ever happened to our security guards and why were they not able to catch those so called intruders i wonder what in the world were they doing man.tsk.owell i just recieved a message from sasha!yay happiness.o my cant believe she almost got mugged that day.it's like thank god those two boys thought that they had nothing to mug her about and went to pick on another target instead otherwise god knows what would have happened.gosh that is certainly something which i do not want to think of man.that would be so bad!!but i think that guy who they chose to mug was really stupid indeed as alright let's say you got mugged by two guys so it's one is to two would anyone in the right mind chase them to a quiet alleyway.he must have been like out of his mind man.he's so lucky that he didnt get bashed up by them or something.anyway there's krunk festival on none other than my birthday at sentosa tanjong beach.how nice to celebrate my birthday with like the motherload of people.fun fun fun.yay so that is why i so want to see EVERYONE there to party with me.it's my sweet sixteen so yeah this is going to make the party extra special.so yes i want you!i want you NOW!!how fun having alot of people at your so called party.it'll definitely be a day to remember.how awesome.anyway i was really shocked at what happened at the fruit stall yesterday when i asked the guy for a mango juice and said please.that guy seriously froze and went like "you said please.no one has ever said please before" gosh i really pity that guy as to hear please for the first time is actually rather sad indeed.owells i shall go there and say please to him more often then.i think being polite can always make someone's day.dont you think so?HAHA.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, July 09, 2006

9:27 PM

and italy has won the world cup!sweet victory but it would have been an even sweeter one if it had not gone into a penalty shootout as everyone claims that that is the most unfair way to ever determine the winner as most of the deep corner balls are seriously hard to save well perhaps unless you are like oliver khan or something but otherwise damn you must be like insane if you were able to block it even if you did a full dive call me bias or whatsoever but i seriously think that those balls are unstoppable.anyway how sad can it get we can kiss the wonderful one month of pure entertainment goodbye as the world cup is OVER.depressing?i know i cant believe it has just whizzed by me like a bullet train.how i wish i can turn back time and have it to start all over again.man even though it just ended like this morning i am starting to miss it already.but man stupid referee that penalty kick was not meant to be given as note to all that guy dived.but anyway who cares as italy won.but i think i would be celebrating even more if the winners were brazil instead.HAHA.my all time heros.owells there is always four years down the long road.anyways did i mention that this year's emdd though yea it cannot be as compared to two years ago but giss so made the entire drama production what i can all awesomeness she made it seem as though the role of kat was made for her so i can say is a wonderful job giss that role was just so you man.HAHA.i think i've gotten a new addiction for ice cream damn this is so going to make me get rounder and rounder soon.sigh anyway thinking about what that teacher said about that article in reader's digest yes i really think what she said is really true as singaporeans are really kinda rude as have you ever seen let's say a female help hold the door open for another person or even have you seen a guy do that?it's really very rare actually that is why i think we should be rated 35 or even 50 as that 30th position is really too high up for us man we are seriously not that polite.i really feel for this nation now as after our heightened economy has take off the entire nation have now just became so self absorbed with themselves that they just do not care about anything or anyone else anymore.which is sad as now does this mean that money changes the ideologies and personalities of people?if that is the case i really do wonder have we really forgotten the manners which we all have been taught to possess on the first day of school?if that is the case i must say that we have really wasted our time and all in school as we didnt learn anything.i seriously think that this politeness of the nation should be solved very quickly or even worst NOW!!actually i think such a think such as manners really do rub against people that is why i think that all we need is just one person to start this whole polite thing it will eventually start rubbing against others and soon we will have a better society and a more welcoming nation.alrights note to self i have got to start changing my ways soon.anyways the much not awaited prelims are coming in about 60days and boy am i so not prepared i seem to be screwing up my subjects for some strange reason and that is really starting to freak me out.i want to do well and i need to do well in order to achieve the things that i want in life.alrights then i think i should start my mugging like now.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Friday, July 07, 2006

12:38 AM

back to the all blues finals of that of italy vs france what an interesting finals a definite must watch but it's a real pity that it will be the end of the much awaited world cup and it will only come back after yet another long and painful four years.damn.how i wish it will be world cup season every two years that would be a less painful wait.but i guess if that is the case the world cup will lose it's signature status and soon it will be forgotten sigh life is really complicating indeed owell.but in all hopes i do hope that italy will win somehow or perhaps france?owell i really do not care about it anymore now that my dear brazil is out but i think it would be a sweeter win if france were to somehow win it though i still think that their win in the semi finals was much of a fluke as that penalty was not meant to be given as that henry clearly did dive i mean seriously but who can trust that guy he is what i can only call some helluva actor who always acts as though he is innocent when clearly he is not and not to mention he is always on the look out for a penalty kick or a free kick so yea the referee should not have listened or paid any attention to his demands and that would just be really unfair in the end to the other team and well in fact the entire match in that way.but anyway ended school at noon today and yes we WERE supposed to go to siglap for cheesecake but once again those idiots bailed on me told you you will right and you said that you wouldnt tsk.owells emdd is back again tomorrow can hardly wait though alrights technically i am not really looking forward for emdd this year actually no idea why too i somehow think i would end up like a lightbulb tomorrow but we shall see about it again.hope it will be fun.might be going to devils bar after that well am still comtemplating about it in fact so we shall see but they are all thinking about going to esplanade straight after it.damn will you guys bail on me again?i somehow have this strong feeling you will.but if they dont then i think heading down to dxo would be a better choice though i dont exactly like the ambience much in dxo and damn the theme is back to school or something along that line tomorrow so errs is it really that necessary for me to turn up there in my school uniform tomorrow.ah wells i am actually going there JUST for the fight for second place match.the battle between germany and portugal.i sure do hope that portugal will win it this time as they really deserve something from this round's world cup as they really did prove alot to the world that portugal is not a team to mess with thanks to big phil,scolari.i still think he is the greatest coach to ever walk the planet as he to me is just so awesome.i am still brooding alot about the fact that i missed the match between portugal and france ahh why in the world was i not able to wake up on time to watch the match geeee it's really starting to become something which i am really starting to regret much alright this is getting rather depressing as i just missed a time in history which only happens once every four years damn alright this is rather bad indeed.ok just heard that there's going to be yet another party at the ministry of sound though yea i really do think that though mos is nice and the amibience is smooth but too much mos can get rather boring.i wanna head to the butter factory or phuture.now that's when we are talking.but i dont think i'm going to be doing any more parties from now till the end of the year or so i hope i dont run anymore parties guess it's really time for me to buck up and pull up my socks and get ready for the prelims which are in like 67 days.damn come to think of it i am really not ready for it as i havent even started my preparations like what he once told me i really do need an inspirationer or a motivater to help me through this tough gruelling period in my life.but still owells i guess going for them would not exactly hurt much so yea i might still be going for at least one party yes nothing more for me this time.anyway school was really a waste of time today three periods of exercise,two periods of propaganda though it was more deja vuish today,two more periods of supposed geog in which my teacher did not even come to school and lastly it's like what fifteen minutes of chemistry yes what a productive day indeed.sense my sarcasm but owells guess such a day does not come about that often so i guess i should try to learn how to appreciate such i guess anyway guess it's time for my mugging to start so let's see whether such a thing really happens.HAHA

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

1:35 AM

alrights had chinese oral today.what can i say but it was in some way quite bad as i cant believe i skipped some words during the oral.damn how in the world did i do that.right i think i suffer from like some severe eyesight problem man that i actually skipped words damn that is just so bad.ahhh i'm totally depressed now and i asked my teacher to repeat the question cause i seriously did not catch it the first time.damn errrs will they minus marks for it?please dont man as i suffer from some hearing disablity too.HAHA.but yea stupid question too some shit about libraries.right please please PLEASE tell me i caught the question correctly as i think i did quite badly this time.crap as orals really help you alot in fact.it can help you to skip at least one to two grades yes and that can mean from a b3 to an a2 or even a b3 to an a1.i mean seriously damn that is ALOT.so please tell me i did well this time.i really do not want that faithful incident to repeat man.that really sucked.anyway my pops is being a pain man why the fuck does he have to keep taking away my internet connection wires.damn it's really starting to get on my nerves man.owells germany vs italy on later.well technically it is on tomorrow but owells i take it as it is on today.man i sure hope that italy will win as yeah no doubt i do like some players in germany but i really do want to see some new bloods in the finals.yes italy vs portugal perhaps?now that would be really something new.but i somehow still feel that it would end up being a germany and france finals and yet again the french will take home the cup.sigh but shut up man i am still brooding over my brazil defeat.geesh.ahh bought the world cup voices cd.no idea why did i do that too but yea.pretty nice songs in there.next up i wanna get some funky trance cd yes i shall blow my brain cells off.i'm really starting to like physics lessons as now i really do understand the concept and everything better and seriously this whole she-bang about radioactivity is really starting to get rather interesting though i really do still wonder if paper can block alpha particles and aluminium for beta particles and lead or concrete for gamma rays why in the world are we still so adversely affected by such radioactivity from a nuclear explosion.doesnt that really make you question the authencity of the whole radioactivity concept and all as why arent they blocked out by these materials somehow.owells i guess that is due to the so called wonders of science and all these crap.anyway somehow i am starting to self indulge more than usual for some really strange reason.damn i'm so going to get rounder by the day but seriously food is starting to taste so much better than usual to me.o gosh this is so bad i want to maintain my physique man somebody please stop me now before it's way too late man.anyway i think tokyo drift is the shit.the lovely 2002 nissan 350z fairlady saw it,and fell in love with it.i have never seen a nicer modified car than that i totally feel that whoever did the whole modification thing really did a good job in the show.talk about the need for speed that is really something.owells i do not want to go to school tomorrow as who cares about school when there is world cup on tele furthermore school is like forever there while world cup only happens once every four years and that is what you can call some helluva wait so yes can anyone think of some crap which i can come up with for tomorrow and the day after tomorrow?am thinking of using my bad throat to get some mc but just a thought would that actually help me get two days off?as i also want to take a day off too on monday.what can i say i would never miss the world cup finals for some shit in school and for some shit nagging which i hear every single day.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, July 02, 2006

8:38 PM

i like reading those blogs by those soccer stars.they really do give me a deeper insight into the matches which they play and so on so forth.i was devastated when brazil lost to france yesterday to tell you the truth i almost cried.i mean how did that happen?the masters of samba vs the bunch of ageing men shouldnt the results be the other way around?but sadly the match the totally over for the samba boys now.damn i really do wish we can turn back time and replay that particular match.why in the world did they not mark henry?now that is clearly the dumbest thing to do geesh.owells now it's portugal all the way for me this world cup yes no doubt the fact they those portugese are at times indeed a bunch of oscars but they sure can play no doubt about that.owells am forced to have some queer reading tuition on later as like my mom said i cannot speak and articulate my chinese properly shucks that is so not true man i do speak chinese well not like i'm illiterate at chinese or what so ever as that is really an insult.sigh the guys all wanna go to town like SUPER early today.damn at 1?i dont go town that early man that is like whoa.sigh i still need to collect money from devan and joshua.finally i wont be broke.happiness geesh i made quite little from all the parties this june yes no doubt it is 3 figures but it is still quite little considering the fact that it is for four various parties ah wells damn the commission man.but i really feel like organising one sometime in late november of december before i fly off now that is what i call absolute sweetness.think that would be a really great experience and the best part is that you will be doing it with your friends and all.HAH.sigh i'm getting sick with this whole going out thing now geesh i really want to cancel this meeting today as it is really starting to get so tiresome like what the hell why so early man and it's like in town.yes one of the many places which i'm starting to dread to go.sigh i think town's getting boring somehow.HAHA.owells i think i will cancel today then.sigh.as town is really not my thing now.owells sorry guys.talking to chinglu now.gosh i really do wish i'm in LA now.that would be total awesomeness how sweet.sigh only 4 more matches left in this world cup before it is over damn and then it's four more years to the next one.gosh how i wish that it's world cup every single day now that would be nice.portugal for the win now that brazil is out.but i really felt for beckham when he was sent off and when he cried as that was when he saw england really crumble.really felt for him then,his final world cup.geesh but it is really sad that things ended off so early for brazil this time.but hey brazil will always be my heros.o and you know what hello panda strawberry flavour is the shit.owells got new specs from emporio armani hurrah i am finally stylishly blind.how pretty they are red red is the shit it is awesome.geesh literature homework is insane will somebody please tell me what the hell does dramtic ironies mean?alrights i think this homework is officially the dumbest one ever as damn it is really hard indeed shunks.somebody please give my teacher a reality check as i'm starting to find the fact that she gives us homework and yet does not mark it rather pointless.ok remind me that i need to go find her to get my work assessed.i really need to find out how to improve as i think doing work without getting them assessed very pointless indeed.alrights i am starting to lose my studying bug i mean seriously but i am starting to lose all motivation in studying somehow.i need some inspiration someone to inspire me to actually study but damn so far no one has yet to take on that role.crap i need someone to inspire me QUICK before my state of life crumbles further i think the state i am in is actually very pathetic.i have no motivation in life and worst is that i have no purpose in it too and i think this is really getting out of hand.somebody please pull the trigger and put the gun to my head and MAKE me study.yes it is official i only have like 118 more days to the big os and like 73 more days to prelims and i have yet to put in any effort to study.ok note to self i need extensive tuition for all my subjects like now gotta call my tutors to confirm quickly.gee looking at the number of days left does help somehow.owells peace to all i am going to hit the search engine for whatever is dramatic ironies actually mean then it's back to the books time i need a study date soon.anyone interested?but you would have a number of requirements to meet too.HAHA

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, July 01, 2006

7:10 AM

alrights am not allowed to go to town with jass to watch england get thrashed and france soulfully beaten.sigh that is so sad but instead i will be heading down to daniel's house to catch it with the same ol people yeah like the supposed old days.sigh owells i really do hope portugal will win tonight man though i heard that their strikers are injured damn that is so sad.where is cristiano ronaldo when i need him on the field most.but hey england is sloppy so yea i really do hope that portugal uses that to their advantage later tonight.o and shut up man england is not going to have portugese egg tarts for supper tonight.alrights enough about them and back to my lovely samba boys.geesh why in the world do they have to play against france and not ukraine sigh if only it was such it would be such a total walk in the park for them.owells the samba against the totally organised bunch.ahhh brazil will still totally kick their butts.i have such absolute faith in them that they can do it.last night was such a let down.argentina lost to germany.ok when ayala scored the goal i was so happy i was screaming non stop.next when klose scored that header my world collasped.then came to penalty shoot out.when lehman did his first save i almost cried and when he did his second save my heard stopped.gosh that was just so depressing.why in the world did that take crespo out so early and not put messi in but instead put cruz in?why?that was just the ultimate wrong thing to do.jeepers they were too complacent too early.even my tutor said so.but at least thank god for the match that was why tuition was cancelled.ahh the other match,knew it the odds were just so clear that italy would win and they did.totally thraashed ukraine 3-0 though technically i feel that they should have made the goal margin much greater and give the ukrainians a greater defeat.now that would have been sweet.finally had my much long awaited hello panda today.my latest obssession,hello panda strawberry flavour.but damn it sure do contain alot of calories did the math today and it was totally shocked to find out that it contains 312 calories think about it one small box with only about 20 cookies in it yet it the outcome it is still just so darn great.now that is just what i call crazy.crap my ear hurts i think i have contracted some sort of wierd ear disease but my friends just told me that my earhole is infected.geesh it really does hurt man and crap i cannot wear my studs just because of it.latest craze big bright colourful studs.they just never fail to brighten up my day.owells now it the great absolute insanity of extra drama classes.the time where all the teachers are panicking that we do not have enough lessons and the crazy truckloads of extra lessons come piling in.goodness i have to go back to the drama center on thrus and mon next week.ok mental note find out information about robert graves and memorize my geisha piece BY thursday.gosh think about the extra things which i have to lug to school as i have to head there straight after school ends with only a miserable 45mins break.sigh my world is starting to suck.owells i so dont intend to go to school once the semis and the finals come.world cup madness baby.gosh but i think i am so starting to lag on sleep been feeling very tired lately even though i slept for more than 12hours today.gosh my body system is just crashing down on me.sigh.this is totally depressing.i cant wait to head down to london to be with my lovely godsisters wish i was there now.i'm leaving on a jet plane.god siblings equals the absolute love.imagine how my world would just go crashing down without them.now that would be madness.

Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;